TW: I should know better by now

I cannot drink coffee. It makes me feel completely out of control, insecure, paranoid and overall, kills my appetite. In the extreme phases of my ED, it was all I would have for days. The high of the caffeine coupled with the high of not eating is scarily familiar and I don’t like that I subconsciously could still make such a stupid choice.

I should know so much better to listen to my body.


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